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Feb. 1st, 2006 | 03:47 pm

I've had this journal going on four or five years, and frankly I'm tired of it.

new journal = so_says_ali

New AIM s/n similar.




Add it if you wish. It'll probably be friends only.


This one is probably going to be deleted in the next couple of weeks. Time to let go.

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Feb. 1st, 2006 | 08:47 am

God damn, I wanna go home.

If I don't have a suitable offer on the table by March 1, I think I might go back. I need somewhere that isn't here. And frankly, I'm pretty gutted that I'm not there with M and B and all of them.

I have an interview there tomorrow but my car isn't working and cooperation levels with this sort of thing are at an all-time low. I have 24 hours for my exhaust to magically heal or else I'm going to miss out. I've been asking my mother to call my father for me for days and she keeps "forgetting". It's frustrating.

(Oh, for those of you who don't get why I can't just call him myself, I don't have long distance service at home. I can't call outside of Groton, and I can't afford more airtime for my cell phone.)

Oh look at me I'm EMO!

SotU was awesome. I fucked up dinner, as usual. Being in close proximity to a screaming bitching teenager and her mother screaming and bitching as well probably didn't help. I am largely incompetent when it comes to this kind of stuff and I'm pretty resigned to the fact that I'll be living on microwave dinners if I ever get out of here.


IF I ever get out of here. That sounds so desperate.

The past couple of days have been really shitty. (I may have bitched about that). There's a lot of family stuff going on that I'm not getting into, but it's pretty heartbreaking if you really think about it. But! There is an upside! My goodness, I'm still sober! I split a bottle of Mike's Lime with my dad a couple of weeks ago, and I would have hated it if it didn't taste like lime candy or anything. But I'm beginning to realize that 1. I own my sobriety and 2. I choose how to define that and what to do with it. Knowing that is pretty empowering, in a cheesy, Maury Povich self-help way.

On the upside I found a Radiohead B-sides mix CD I made in high school. The following songs still really rock:
-Lift
-Big Boots (Man O War)
-Big Ideas (Don't Get Any) (AKA Nude)
-a cover of "Nobody Does It Better"

ETA:classic Radiohead TLP!Collapse )

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Distractions ahoy!

Jan. 31st, 2006 | 08:49 am

In the midst of one of those "omgz I am so emo" self-pity parties I threw for myself yesterday, the phone rang. I let Jill get it.

Guess who it was?


If you said these guys, then you were right.

Anyway. I am spending the day making SotU buzzword bingo cards, making a casserole (or hotdish, if you will), and then having a nice evening in. Last year it was the State of the Union drinking game. This year I'm eating Midwestern food, watching cartoons, and being sober enough to actually know what I'm supposed to mark off. I think I'm regressing.


ETA @10:51 am Also, PC Connection just called to tell me that they're "escalating" my candidacy. When my references and background check work out, then they'll probably make me an offer. I'd rather work at Hesser, honestly, but the money might be better there. We'll have to see. If Hesser makes me an offer, I'm taking it and politely thanking PC Connection for their time. I'm getting a little ahead of myself, but Hesser was all "We've been trying to get you for weeks!" and "we always like to hire alumni" and what not. My interviewer is the DoA at the Salem campus, and the other times we've spoken, he's been receptive and seemed interested in what I have to offer. So we'll see. I'm not banking on it, but I would be... so thrilled.

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Jan. 30th, 2006 | 01:25 pm

Why do Mondays put me in such a shitty mood? I am bored nearly comatose, and I hate most of the world. I am not a huge fan of myself right now, and this is a pretty common Monday thing.

#19: accept loss forever




cut for further emo-bitchy-whining-nessCollapse )

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Jan. 28th, 2006 | 08:13 pm

And in the comments section of this entry, mfong and I will discuss mattlach, the many and varied reasons I don't have a 9-5, and whatever else comes to mind. Anyone else stuck at home on this lovely Saturday night can join in. OK GO!

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Jan. 28th, 2006 | 03:28 pm

Teen Girl Squad is taking over my house shortly. I hate teen girls and I hate squads of them. Please get me the hell out of here.

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Lollercoaster, part III.

Jan. 28th, 2006 | 09:28 am

Yeah, there's need for Lollercoaster, Part III. I thought it couldn't get any better than BBBBBBBBBbOB and William and EKO, but oh boy, it sure does.

I WAS IN THE SHITCollapse )

There's more, I'm lazy though. Happy Saturday, bitches. Whoever feels compelled to stop by my joint tonight with booze, hookers, movies, meat, or parts for an 89 900S is free to do so.

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Lollercoaster of Creepy Internet Love... part II.

Jan. 25th, 2006 | 07:21 pm

And the replies to the infamous Craigslist adkeep rolling in.

here we go!Collapse )


For those of you keeping track, I've slacked off long and hard on the paper journal project. Sorry. Screw you, embodiment.

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Riding the Lollercoaster of Creepy Internet Love...

Jan. 24th, 2006 | 06:39 pm

I post a personals ad now and then, and I get the same thirty guys e-mailing me, telling me that a bit of semen in the eye is all I need to be happy. Now, I haven't had semen in my eye since I was, oh, sixteen, but my eye still burns. It seems that the vast majority of the men on NH Craigslist are really just all about tappin' skinny chicks. Not a skinny chick, not looking to get tapped, just looking for some companionship, y'know? I need to get out of the house, and now that I can count the number of people who are willing to be seen in public with me on one hand, might as well meet some more.

I get some real winners. Real winners, I tell you. I once posted an ad that was all "I suck, a whole lot" and I still got a lot of replies. Creepy replies.

(gahhhhhhhhh this is taking more time than I really want to devote to posting. ack.)

Fuck it, let's just cut to the chase.Collapse )

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QRST

Jan. 21st, 2006 | 10:47 am

Dextrasher: my pain is your funny bone
escalator guru: schadenfreude, baby!
Dextrasher: I'm sorry, I don't speak blackanese
escalator guru: That's German!
Dextrasher: haha, nooo kidding, huh?
escalator guru: HA

On the menu for today: dump w/ the mom (ha that sounds so dirty)
- Pick up teh Saab of DOOM
(swap the tires, swap the battery, swap a bunch of little interior bits, and pray that the head gasket hasn't blown yet)
- Rock out with iamaduckylover. We're going to recycle bottles, then use the money on booze and hookers.

Going to a redemption center with my friend from high school... so we can buy alcohol. Oh yeah, we're grown up alright.


ETA @ 3:30: Dagle's toilet is overflowing (still) so Plan B is, pick up TEH SAAB OF DOOM then swing up to Nashua for tea or pizza or ANYTHING BUT BEING HOME ON A SATURDAY NIGHT.

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